I called this “Moments Of Memories” because if you take the first letter of that title it spells mom. I haven’t seen my mom in a very long time. A lot of traumatic things happened to me my sister, my mother, and my father.
We all basically got separated a long time ago and now I barely talk to any of my close family members. When life gives you lemons you got to make lemonade.
Unfortunately, life is not sweet and I doubt any wants to drink sour water.
To be honest with you, despite being lonely almost all the time and separated from friends and family you start to find the things that make you feel like you’re not alone anymore. That’s where I find those “sweet” moments in my life. One of the main reasons why I feel like that is because I’m making music I don’t feel so alone.
How I Fight Against Loneliness
I feel like the music itself is my friend one who I have been with for a long time. Music is the best way for me to express how I feel and who I am. Another moment that I have to myself is when I’m exercising.
Sometimes when I’m working out I feel like I can be myself and move how I feel. But last year I got some very important news. So while I was going through Facebook, I saw a page that resembled my mother.
After going through her profile to see if it was actually her I sent her a message. I had tried to get in contact with her on Facebook prior to last year. I had tried to reach out to her the first time when I first found her page.
Last Christmas, You Gave Me My Mom
Then last Christmas I sent her a Happy Holidays message and she called me. I didn’t know what to do or what to expect honestly. All I knew was that I had to pick up the phone. When I answered, I couldn’t tell if she was my mother or not but she seemed to know me for who I was.
I was still happy that I got a chance to talk to her and see how she was doing but one thing bothered me. I didn’t know if I would ever talk to her again. She told me that the phone that she was using was a phone that she had found and that she found a way to log in just so she could say something back.
I love my mom very much and I hope that she is still doing alright out there. I know she’s out there all by herself still trying to figure it out. I’m still trying to figure out my own life, but I’m only just a young man. So I can’t tell you that I know everything, because I don’t.
But This Year
With that being said I think it would be best if I keep in mind that when moments like these come around you have to cherish them. I make sure to try to make the most of my life because I know that nobody else is going to do it for me. To be honest I hope I can get another chance to talk with my mother again because that would mean a lot to me.
I also hope that in the future I get a chance to see her as well. Like I said before I hope she is doing alright out there because I know that it is really tough and doing it out there all alone is no better.
By Takhon Hemingway
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